This beautifully written and self-revealing memoir of motherhood as a spiritual practice spans an eighteen-year journey through the author's first pregnancy, her daughter's tragic stillbirth, the joyful birth of her son, and the challenges of parenthood. Following her son's diagnosis, she endured the meltdown of her perfect nuclear family, and fought to emerge on the other side after re-configuring it into a new and joyful form. Full of rawness and the beauty of life through trying to practice mindfulness and Buddhism, this book reveals life and motherhood in all its beauty and mess glory.(This title may contain a sharpie mark on the top or bottom edge and may show mild signs of shelfwear.)